tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81311405347699242332024-02-20T01:37:56.391-08:00emagineacandoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-18334528596544731402016-03-18T01:37:00.000-07:002016-03-18T01:37:21.745-07:00this blog waswhere i would send words from my phone when i did not have a computer, but i have forgotten how... maybe i'll remember someday... maybe i will get a modern phone and tablet and computer one day too... windows vista, ha... <br />
<br />
don't mock me ;P<br />
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candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-80748008981739107042015-01-06T19:01:00.001-08:002015-01-06T19:03:48.732-08:00what was this<br />
what is this<br />
what did it all mean<br />
what does it all mean to you right now?<br />
<br />
what will you<br />
what won't you<br />
what could it have been<br />
what is it all about in the here and now?<br />
<br />
is it just the hunger to survive being alone<br />
as emptiness fills every space where love should be?<br />
is it merely passion wishing to be known and shared<br />
as natural instinctive drives deep into lonely lonely<br />
<br />
loneliness <br />
can leave the heart ailing<br />
as hope wains<br />
feel the spirit failing<br />
struggle to believe<br />
in love<br />
above<br />
the end of the world <br />
the end of belief<br />
leaving only pain<br />
the suffering<br />
of grief<br />
<br />
tell me you didn't give up<br />
tell me i didn't quit<br />
tell me there is still hope for love<br />
tell me you still feel it<br />
tell me i still feel it<br />
tell me all the doubts are false illusions<br />
just delusions of an idle mind<br />
together we can find<br />
the hope and dreams and belief in love<br />
have not been left behind<br />
<br />
is this it?<br />
imagine<br />
life is kindcandoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-84567684686808249692014-05-08T19:15:00.000-07:002015-01-06T19:26:35.790-08:00i have no clue where this was coming from<br />
or where it was going<br />
i was left out of the knowing<br />
and it feels like so much longing<br />
so much wanting waiting for<br />
something more<br />
something more<br />
something more<br />
<br />
mostly forgotten<br />
like the dream of love<br />
once the most powerful promise<br />
i've ever known<br />
now all that is left is feeling lost<br />
in the unknown<br />
<br />
it was just there<br />
now it's despair<br />
like salt on snow<br />
the melted glow<br />
leaves the ground bare<br />
<br />
and meaningless<br />
undress redress<br />
like summer wind<br />
i must rescind<br />
i must confess<br />
<br />
feeling nothing else uncertainty<br />
i have no idea what this should be<br />
lament leaning toward infinity<br />
lingering longing where i used to find me<br />
<br />
maybe this is something left<br />
for where i used to be<br />
candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-79619391450638938382013-04-07T20:56:00.001-07:002013-04-07T22:00:05.287-07:00And yet even as the body wants to collapse even as the writer wants to go the bed somehow the fingers find a may to move to get these words out of my headcandoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-46315843413600066492012-05-18T11:41:00.000-07:002012-05-18T11:41:37.091-07:00even when it's oddeven when i find a moment to feel<br />
there is not enough time to explore on the feeling<br />
like not enough air to dive into the depths of the ocean<br />
to experience the moment that is eternity<br />
<br />
even when i find the inspiration<br />
there is not enough motivation for the feeling<br />
to expand into the revelation it can be<br />
like not enough hope to overcome the depression in the earth<br />
that a comet strike could bring<br />
<br />
even when i find the moment magic<br />
something comes along or someone interrupts the feeling <br />
people are so dramatic in their worries<br />
like not enough faith in themselves to take control<br />
and fix whatever they did wrong<br />
<br />
and once again it happens<br />
to help someone who needs me<br />
i leave the precious moment<br />
unfinishedcandoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-23946965306155541372011-12-26T21:18:00.000-08:002011-12-26T21:18:23.907-08:00lost along the wayfeeling kinda lonely lost in limbo tonight<br />
wondering if clarity will come with morning light<br />
<br />
don't want to close my eyes<br />
and yet i<br />
don't want to see the the empty space around me<br />
<br />
don't want to close my mind<br />
and yet i<br />
don't want to think about how no one has found me<br />
<br />
feeling kinda wonky old and wasted tonight<br />
wondering if patience will make everything alright<br />
<br />
don't want to just let it be<br />
and yet i<br />
don't want to do anything desperately<br />
<br />
don't want to compromise<br />
and yet i<br />
don't want to live a life of lies<br />
<br />
do you understand the words coming out of my mouth<br />
does anybody hear me<br />
hear me<br />
<br />
do you give a damn if i stand up or slouch<br />
does anybody feel me<br />
feel me<br />
<br />
do you remember how it felt to be real<br />
does anybody know me<br />
know me<br />
<br />
see me<br />
see me<br />
<br />
touch me<br />
heal me<br />
<br />
feeling kinda retrofit nostalgic tonight<br />
caught between too lose and sorta feeling uptight<br />
<br />
don't want to go to sleep<br />
and yet i<br />
don't want to die, no i don't want to die<br />
<br />
don't want to be alone<br />
and yet i<br />
don't want to lie, no i don't want to lie<br />
<br />
do you remember<br />
oh do you remember<br />
(what life was like)<br />
life before the lie?<br />
<br />
were you lost along the way<br />
do you even know <br />
what was lost along the way<br />
do you even care<br />
what was lost along the way<br />
you do even out<br />
what was lost along the way<br />
<br />
do you understand the words coming out of my mouth<br />
does anybody hear me<br />
hear me<br />
<br />
do you give a damn if i stand up or slouch<br />
does anybody feel me<br />
feel me<br />
<br />
do you remember how it felt to be real<br />
does anybody know me<br />
know me<br />
<br />
see me<br />
see me<br />
<br />
touch me<br />
heal mecandoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-5390920645382847342011-05-30T22:37:00.001-07:002011-05-31T16:19:00.834-07:00It took long enough to find my way<br />
Technology is not working today<br />
and the eyes are blurry up close<br />
and fatigue is an unpleasant host<br />
in the night all alone<br />
out here on my own <br />
Sometimes I wish consciousness would end<br />
All I want to do is sleep<br />
How I wish I was with a friend<p>I wish I had a friend <br />
who would be here in the night<br />
When the weight of the world brings me down<br />
When awareness of the way people treat each other<br />
Turns my smile in to a frown<p>Oh I wish I had a friend <br />
who understood me<br />
who would tell me everything was ok<br />
Someone who could be the one I could trust<br />
to make the whole world fade away<br />
The one who would save the night<br />
and still be there the next day<p>Someday<br />
Somewaycandoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-9087829093475108982011-05-13T13:11:00.001-07:002011-08-07T10:35:12.071-07:00Well ok there is a rub <br />
The words are going nowhere<br />
Even if nobody ever reads one<br />
It felt better to share<br />
To hope some one would care<br />
And find my words out there<br />
Right here<p>There are many other places I can send these words<br />
Even though I am here most of the time <br />
Now that this site is down I am thinking<br />
Where is the back up place for my rhyme<br />
losing it all again would feel like a crime<br />
And I don't want to feel<br />
like the victim of a crime<p>and I still don't want to miss<br />
A thing<br />
I <a href=http://candor.tumblr.com/post/5438799187/back-up target="blank">stumbled into this</a>candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-663674957889169622011-05-06T13:47:00.001-07:002011-05-06T13:47:34.885-07:00Some people work for money<br>Some people work for.fame<br>Some people work to be funny<br>and for some people work is a game<br>it's just like in.love or in anything else<br>You make it how you want it to be<br>You get what you get.based on what you put in<br>And you make it reality<p>It doesn't matter where or when you understand<br>What matter is that you do<br>Some people work hardest on a toilet seat<br>Where you <a href="http://do.is">do.is</a> up to youcandoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-78353802485378211982011-05-04T00:07:00.001-07:002011-05-05T19:02:31.024-07:00Sometimes I feel so lonely <br />
Even after all these years of being alone<br />
So comfortable in my own skin<br />
Only I know everywhere I've been<br />
And how much I enjoy my own company<br />
And experiencing everything alone<br />
But still sometimes I feel lonely<br />
So lonesome I could die lonely<br />
yet I could find a lover<br />
But first I want a friend<br />
Who can share honesty <br />
And trust unconditionally<br />
Someone who will still be with me<br />
When the initial pleasure ends<br />
And if you think you know what I mean<br />
And you can share everything your eyes have ever seen<br />
And more you will <br />
More you will<br />
More you willcandoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-26445798449734726142011-04-27T18:05:00.001-07:002011-04-27T18:05:27.738-07:00Cuz I want to understand <br>The power of I wanna hold your hand<br>Cuz I want to comprehend<br>The feeling of you've got a friend<br>Cuz I want to really see<br>Everything that love can be<br>Cuz I want to share everything<br>I want to hear your heart sing<p>When you're all alone whether day or night<br>I want you to feel everything is alright<br>And anytime you want to share<br>Anytime you want someone to care<br>Anytime you want me to be there<br>I will be right here<br>For the one who understands<br>the power of words<br>The power of hands<br>The power we share <br>Right here <br>You have a magic wand<br>and all you need to do<br>is respond.candoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8131140534769924233.post-52496688159458175412011-04-20T05:09:00.001-07:002011-04-20T05:12:59.714-07:00These ... silent messages <br />
Tweet tweet tweet. <br />
Twitter Facebook MySpace. <br />
<br />
These ... silent messages <br />
Tweet tweet tweet. <br />
Email texting bottles <br />
<br />
These ... silent messages <br />
<br />
Like the beat of the drums<br />
When the distance becomes<br />
As close as a touch <br />
Cuz I miss you so much<br />
I send these silent messages<br />
To remind me<br />
To remind you<br />
How much<br />
I love you <br />
I miss you<br />
I want you<br />
I love you<br />
<br />
These ... <br />
Silent messagescandoorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16247345559618328103noreply@blogger.com0