And yet even as the body wants to collapse even as the writer wants to go the bed somehow the fingers find a may to move to get these words out of my head

even when it's odd

even when i find a moment to feel
there is not enough time to explore on the feeling
like not enough air to dive into the depths of the ocean
to experience the moment that is eternity

even when i find the inspiration
there is not enough motivation for the feeling
to expand into the revelation it can be
like not enough hope to overcome the depression in the earth
that a comet strike could bring

even when i find the moment magic
something comes along or someone interrupts the feeling
people are so dramatic in their worries
like not enough faith in themselves to take control
and fix whatever they did wrong

and once again it happens
to help someone who needs me
i leave the precious moment
unfinished

lost along the way

feeling kinda lonely lost in limbo tonight
wondering if clarity will come with morning light

don't want to close my eyes
and yet i
don't want to see the the empty space around me

don't want to close my mind
and yet i
don't want to think about how no one has found me

feeling kinda wonky old and wasted tonight
wondering if patience will make everything alright

don't want to just let it be
and yet i
don't want to do anything desperately

don't want to compromise
and yet i
don't want to live a life of lies

do you understand the words coming out of my mouth
does anybody hear me
hear me

do you give a damn if i stand up or slouch
does anybody feel me
feel me

do you remember how it felt to be real
does anybody know me
know me

see me
see me

touch me
heal me

feeling kinda retrofit nostalgic tonight
caught between too lose and sorta feeling uptight

don't want to go to sleep
and yet i
don't want to die, no i don't want to die

don't want to be alone
and yet i
don't want to lie, no i don't want to lie

do you remember
oh do you remember
(what life was like)
life before the lie?

were you lost along the way
do you even know
what was lost along the way
do you even care
what was lost along the way
you do even out
what was lost along the way

do you understand the words coming out of my mouth
does anybody hear me
hear me

do you give a damn if i stand up or slouch
does anybody feel me
feel me

do you remember how it felt to be real
does anybody know me
know me

see me
see me

touch me
heal me

It took long enough to find my way
Technology is not working today
and the eyes are blurry up close
and fatigue is an unpleasant host
in the night all alone
out here on my own
Sometimes I wish consciousness would end
All I want to do is sleep
How I wish I was with a friend

I wish I had a friend
who would be here in the night
When the weight of the world brings me down
When awareness of the way people treat each other
Turns my smile in to a frown

Oh I wish I had a friend
who understood me
who would tell me everything was ok
Someone who could be the one I could trust
to make the whole world fade away
The one who would save the night
and still be there the next day

Someday
Someway

Well ok there is a rub
The words are going nowhere
Even if nobody ever reads one
It felt better to share
To hope some one would care
And find my words out there
Right here

There are many other places I can send these words
Even though I am here most of the time
Now that this site is down I am thinking
Where is the back up place for my rhyme
losing it all again would feel like a crime
And I don't want to feel
like the victim of a crime

and I still don't want to miss
A thing
I stumbled into this

Some people work for money
Some people work for.fame
Some people work to be funny
and for some people work is a game
it's just like in.love or in anything else
You make it how you want it to be
You get what you get.based on what you put in
And you make it reality

It doesn't matter where or when you understand
What matter is that you do
Some people work hardest on a toilet seat
Where you do.is up to you

Sometimes I feel so lonely
Even after all these years of being alone
So comfortable in my own skin
Only I know everywhere I've been
And how much I enjoy my own company
And experiencing everything alone
But still sometimes I feel lonely
So lonesome I could die lonely
yet I could find a lover
But first I want a friend
Who can share honesty
And trust unconditionally
Someone who will still be with me
When the initial pleasure ends
And if you think you know what I mean
And you can share everything your eyes have ever seen
And more you will
More you will
More you will